Just Desserts...or...They Had it Coming

I couldn't decide on a title for this blog because there are so many quips I could have used to describe the content of this post. I was afraid that "Just Desserts" might be thought of as, like, we are serving "just desserts" at our Super Bowl party, rather than it's intended "he'll get his just desserts". Also, only saying "they had it coming" could have been mistaken for an amazon package on it's way.
Either way, today's topic came to mind because I have been studying the life and times of Jesus, from the culture and geography to the traditions and history. In my studies I discovered some very interesting tidbits regarding Herod the Great; more specifically, tidbits regarding his death.
If anyone had it coming it was Herod.
Herod the murderer. Herod the blasphemer. Herod the dictator, tyrant, sycophant...the list of his criminal titles could go on and on! This is the Herod who had three of his sons executed because he felt threatened by them, who had his wife, Meriamne, killed because he thought she might be planning an affair. This is the Herod who, on his deathbed, corralled hundreds of Israel's favorite men to be executed at the moment of his death so Israel would grieve instead of rejoice the day. This is also the Herod that had Bethlehem's baby boys, aged two and under, murdered so he could extinguish the hope of Jesus' kingship.
Really, there are no words to describe how wicked and evil this man was. Only few men in history have elevated their deeds to Herodian levels, and these are the men that no one names their kids after: Antiochus Epiphanes, Nero, Stalin, Hitler...all brutal, savage, murderous. evil.
You may be interested to know that Herod's death mirrored how he lived his life: grotesque and demoralizing.
As history records it, "disease consumed him, painful symptoms wracked his entire body in pain. He only a slight fever, but his skin itched terribly all over. His intestines hurt all the time, his feet and abdomen were swollen, and his genitals were rotting with gangrene, which had become infested with maggots. Beside all this he had trouble breathing and couldn't breath at all when he sat up." (War of the Jews, Josephus)
I'm sorry, maybe it is unkind and unmerciful, but I just can't bring myself to feel sorry for the dude; even if his boy parts were covered with maggots (some attribute that a result of gonorrhea).
Another who had a rather ungentlemanly death is Joseph Stalin. According to wikipedia he was found on the floor in his room, soaked in stale urine and mumbling unintelligibly. They diagnosed him with a cerebral hemorrhage (stroke) caused by hypertension (high blood pressure), with stomach hemorrhage facilitating.^[307] He was treated in his dacha with leeches, as was customary at the time.^[308] On March 3 his double Felix Dadaev was called back from vacation to Moscow "to be ready to stand in for Stalin if needed", but he never needed to. On March 4 Stalin's illness was broadcast in the media with surprising detail such as pulse, blood pressure and urinalysis; for convenience the time of his stroke was said to be March 2 and his location as Moscow. The bedridden Stalin died on 5 March 1953, at the age of 74.^[1]

Obviously Herod had it worse, yeah, but he didn't get off quite as easy as some other villains. Hitler and Nero both committed suicide. That just don't seem right...where's the justice in a quick offing with a sword or a gun?
So what's with all the history lessons here? Well, as I was considering Herod and his wickedness I found within me this...gladness...to see that he suffered horribly at his death. Does that make me bad? I'm sure it's not all christiany to say it, but there is a big part of me that wants to see people paid back for the wrong that they do.
I have a tremendous need for JUSTICE! Perhaps that comes from that little-girl place in me that wants to be defended and protected; the little girl that wants to know the bad guys will get punished. I have a need to know that good will win and bad will lose.
Years ago Ted Bundy was wreaking havoc. Perhaps you'll remember him...the serial rapist and murderer who brutalized and terrorized the country in the 1970's by killing nearly 30 young women. This man was so evil that he would return to the bodies left in the wilderness to rot, and perform acts with their corpses. I shudder to even think of this man's evil deeds. Yet, in a recorded conversation with James Dobson, before his execution in January of 1989, Ted Bundy said he was a born-again Christian.
So, Ted Bundy is in heaven right now.
Where is the justice in that?
How does it seem like we can trust the God who promises to protect and defend us, when the bad guy goes to heaven? Is God less good because he let the bad in? Is His justice system flawed when the evil in the world are succeeding and the good, Jesus-following Christians are being murdered in their churches and homes?

There was a time not long ago that I was having a bit of a fit in my car. I mean, I was having myself a bawl-baby fit! I was crying out to the Lord and asking Him why things had to be so hard, and why can't life be a bit easier (let me be clear...I am WELL aware that my life is super awesome and blessed, especially in contrast to those in the middle east). It wasn't pretty, and it was really quite petty; nonetheless I was having a fit. It was in the middle of my pity party that the Lord spoke to my heart saying, "why do you expect life to be heaven when you aren't there yet?"
That's it. God made us "with eternity in our hearts" (Ecclesiastes 3:11) and we are heavenly minded; we are longing for the perfection of heaven in a corrupt and wicked world. It's not going to be perfect here. Jesus told us that: "in this world you will have trouble, but take heart, for I have overcome the world." (John 16:33)
So is God's justice system flawed because evil succeeds?
 No.
 His justice has been put on hold - at least in the way that he will manage trouble makers in the future...with an iron rod!
In the meantime we get glimpses of his perfect justice, like when child abusers are found out and punished and when serial rapists are unveiled and their reputation is ruined; when terrorists and dictators are discovered and their punishment is mete out.
I trust God's justice and I trust his timing...and I know that I may not see the fullness of either until heaven, but until then I cling to the promise that he makes regarding his character:
"The Lord, the Lord, the compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to a thousand generations, forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin; yet does not leave the guilty unpunished..." (Exodus 34:6-7)
Herod, with the way he died, got to sample a bit of God-sized justice...can you imagine how he is now suffering?
So now, thinking back to Ted Bundy, the only thing I can think to say is we either believe in Amazing Grace or Cheap Grace. Cheap Grace is what we might believe in if we have to be on our best behavior and earn our place in heaven through good deeds - with the final push through the door from the cross. It's the grace that limits the forgiveness of God to human standards and human understanding. It's the grace that tells young women not to have abortions and then shuns and shames the single mother. You-gotta-earn-it grace is cheap.
Then there is Amazing Grace...the grace the forgives and saves the murderers, the liars, the rapists, the tribal natives that spear the missionaries, the devil-worshiping rocker, the Nazi guard who terrorized their Jewish captives. Amazing Grace is the grace that makes a known sinner fall at the feet of Jesus and wash his feet with her tears; it's the grace that makes the worst of humanity a lover of the Savior of humanity.
Who am I to be mad that Ted Bundy got saved? Aren't I a sinner saved by grace too?
We all had it coming...but because of Jesus we who believe will not receive our just desserts; instead we will receive a enormous heaping a GRACE!

The Transforming Power of Cussing

It used to be less common; using foul language. 
It used to be...or perhaps I thought it was. That is, until I watched one of my favorite childhood movies "The Goonies". I was excited to watch it after so long a time, and watch it with my children too. I remember fondly the "Hey you guys!" pirate scene, the siren call to adventure even if you're a dork, the happy ending. So, I turned on the movie and within minutes I turned it right back off. I couldn't believe all the horrible words coming out of the mouths of those little boys. I was stunned! How did I not notice all that cussing when I was a kid?
Maybe cussing had been more common than I previously thought.
I used to cuss a lot. The year I had the gangsta-wanna-be boyfriend who listened to rap with explicit lyrics (what was I thinking??!)... I swore a lot that year. That was my senior year in high school; the zenith of my teenage trying-to-be-cool mindset. The next year I went to college at a Christian University (Corban University) and had to rewrite the script I had been speaking by for years. Nobody there cussed...at least not out loud, and not around me. The kids going to this school were here to prepare for a life of Christian ministry and Christians don't swear.
Well, that's what I thought anyway.
So, I stopped cussing. After a while I began to like the non-cussing Christina, so I continued to not cuss because, well, I didn't want to.
Now, as a recovered cusser, I have to be honest and admit that when I hear someone cuss it unnerves me. No, that's too soft a word. It puckers my soul. Think of taking a big, long suck on a lemon dipped in vinegar then rolled in salt. That's how it feels to my soul when I hear cussing.
Just today I was walking into a store behind a pair of ladies. They were stylishly dressed, hair done nicely...just pretty, really. I wasn't evesdropping, I promise, but I was overhearing these women talking about social issues and the environment, when all of a sudden one of the women dropped the "F" bomb. It's called a bomb for a reason you know; it destroys! This woman's foul language totally destroyed my first impression of her as a classy girl and transformed my view of her into something different.
Its like going from this:

to this:

Now, don't get your unders snarled. I am NOT saying that girls who swear ARE trashy; I am saying that when we swear (and don't forget that I am a card holding member of Cussers Anonymous) it transforms the way we are seen in the eyes of others.
My junior high aged daughter has dropped a couple of bombs recently, in part because that's what she hears the kids say all day, and also because she wants to fit in. When she swears the other kids see her as one of their own.
She doesn't belong to them though, not really, she has pledged her life to Jesus Christ and she belongs to Him; but when she cusses she looks like she's traded teams.
This is the transforming power of our words.
If you watch British TV, Downton Abbey for instance, there is a big difference in the way the separate classes spoke. The serving class and the upper class were distinguished by, not only their dress and bearing, but also by their use of language. In the same way, the manner in which we choose to speak distinguishes us from the world who does not follow, love and obey God - or not.
We who call ourselves "Christians" are representing the person connected to that name. I don't think you would have heard Jesus Christ propping up a parable with a few well placed cuss words. Yeah...no.
Philippians 1:27 tells us to "live you life in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ" and I strongly believe that includes our language. It's more than cussing, it's also the content of our conversations. Is Jesus' character and personality coming out in what you say? Paul told the Ephesians, "coarse and foolish talking or crude joking are not suitable, but rather giving thanks." Apparently potty talk was an issue in the first century too.
Speaking of Downton Abbey, there is a line that Mr. Carson says in season one, episode two that has always struck a chord with me: "You must remember that a good servant at all times retains a sense of pride and dignity that reflects the pride and dignity of the family he servies. And never make me remind you of it again.

A Godly Response to Jerks

First of all, I realize "jerk" is probably a 90's word, because I don't hear it much anymore; usually I hear more choice words of an inflammatory nature, especially when referring to women. All that aside, this blog post is dedicated to the people in our lives that make life a little more difficult, uncomfortable and downright poopy.

My Jerk is a woman I have worked with for many years now. We are both instructors with well attended classes and good followings; all important for a successful fitness career. She came to the job a few years after me and I welcomed her with open arms...I tend to view new people as potential new best friends. I like people.
It didn't take long before I realized that I was not going to be BFFs with this instructor. Her body language, eye contact, and words said as much. Once I invited her to coffee to see if there was anything I had done to her to warrant her cold indifference and she alluded to feeling that I treated her like competition. It's probably true. I do struggle with pride and I don't like it if I feel less-than someone else. Perhaps I put off an air of comparison/competitive arrogance...(shrug). Either way, I tried to be super nice to her. Man, I really went out of my way to ask her about her family, her classes, her life; short, terse, one-word replies.
Cozy.
Fast forward a year. This woman had been given the task of helping with a program at our gym and I found out about it from our supervisor. Intrigued by new possibilities, I asked the woman about her vision for the program and she chewed me out. Like, seriously, bit off my head, chewed for a few minutes, then stuck it back on.
I had no business asking such questions, apparently.
Well, I can't say I responded well. I wasn't mean, you know, but I did stick up for myself. The problem is that I know what my body language looks like when I'm angry (I've watched my angry self in the mirror before, haven't you?) so I am certain that my attempts at not being wretched were thwarted by my pinched face and flashing eyes.
Later, I called to apologize and to find out why she continued to not like me, in spite of my niceness. Her answer? I didn't say her name when I say hi.
Wha???
Yep, that's right. Me saying, "Hey there!" or "Hey you!" or "Hi, how's it going?" showed irreconcilable disrespect.
Wha???
For a while I tried to remember to always pronounce her name in my welcomes, but after a while I realized that it wasn't fixing anything. Really, I think she only got worse. She officially became that person you think of when you hear the word: JERK.
So what do you do when there is a jerk in your life, and you really don't like them, but you want to be godly? It's tricky!
I really want to know what Jesus would do in this predicament. He had lots of jerks messing with him, you know. Seriously, everywhere Jesus went a Jerk was sure to go.
First, let's establish who Jesus' jerks were: the Pharisees and Saducees. They were the religious leaders, raised to study and keep the laws of God. They were the ones who would follow Jesus, conspiring together to try to trip him up so he'd look a fool to the people and lose his following. They worked very hard to take him down a notch (i.e. get him killed), but every time Jesus responded to these jerk-faces in such a way that they were left speechless. So what did Jesus do...did he "kill them with kindness" as we are often told to do? Probably, we are told to turn the other cheek, forgive as we have been forgiven, answer harshness with a soft reply...but, I noticed Jesus did something a little different while doing all that.
Jesus told it like it was.
Just a cursory glance through the gospels shows us a number of times Jesus had face-offs with the religious leaders, in each instance the Lord was not like, "Oh, I shouldn't say this because they might respond badly", or " I'm just going to sit here quietly and take their abuse and hope they go away". No, Jesus wasn't a pantie-waist mamby pamby. He spoke forcefully and truthfully, but it was all with the purpose of bringing about repentance.
Examples:
He called out hypocrisy (Mark 12:13-17)
He pointed out the false teachings they'd believed in (Mark 12:18-27)
He showed them the evil intent in their hearts (Mark 12:1-12)
He taught them the truth of God's word and called attention to their hard heartedness and pride (Mark 10:1-12)
He refused to argue with them (Mark 8:11-13)

   I don't think this gives us permission to use our tongue like a filet knife whenever we feel someone is being mean, no way. What it does do is gives us permission to "speak the truth in love".
What?
Okay, say there is a jerk lurking about in your life...you can't get away from said-jerk because of one reason or another: family member, co-worker, neighbor, school mate. What if you were to do like Jesus and say it like it is?
You are wrong to treat my children that way.
It hurts me when you talk to me like that.
Your decision to do that was wrong and I will not be held responsible.
I am going to walk away, because I will not be a part of this conversation.

Here is the caveat though....if you just can't wait to see that person again so you can lay into them some good ol' "truth in love"? Don't do it. Telling someone the truth about their jerkiness is not so you can one-up them; it's so they can see their sin and repent.
If that is not your primary motivation in saying it like it is, then keep your mouth shut. In that case do something else that Jesus did: leave.

I Don't Think God Likes Me

Last night I was having one of those conversations with my 7th grade daughter. You know...the kind I have been warned would be coming; the kind with all the deep questions that most people don't want to answer. Maybe I am weird, but I LOVE those conversations! Go ahead, ask me about sex and boys and popularity and God and hell and stuff...BRING IT!
I like to go deep...talk about deep things that really matter, so this was my kind of convo.
At one point we were talking about the way God puts boundaries around our lives in order to spare us from hurt, pain and regret. It was at this point that my daughter said, "yeah, he looks at me and can't wait to (pushes a finger into the top of the bed) go Squish!"
I wanted to say, "Nu-uh! God is so not like that!" but then it occurred to me that I used to think that way too. So I told her as much.
"You know, I used to think that God was just waiting for me to mess up too, but then I learned that he's much nicer than that."
And it's true, He is much nicer than that. In Psalm 50:21 God says, "You thought I was altogether like you", because we often think that He is just like the people who can be mean, vindictive, punishing and abusive - only He's bigger and older. But God shows us through His word that He's so much different than us - so unlike us.
I know there have been times I've waited for my kids to screw up; sometimes it was because I couldn't wait to try out a new discipline technique. But I admit, I've done it. I've grown so weary of chronic bad behavior from them I do come down hard and unforgiving. Have my kids seen my past harshness and relate it the way they think God is? Maybe. Upon further deep thinking on the matter; knowing that this is an area many people struggle with, I don't think the perceived harshness and fear of reprisal is the main issue. I think we wonder, deep down inside, "Does God like me?"
I know, I know, the Bible says "God is love" - you bet. Does He like me? The Bible says "He is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness" (Exodus 34:6-7), but does he like me?
I have experienced first hand the love-you-don't-like-you phenomenon. You know, those family members who "love" you because you are family, but they don't have any desire to hang out? You know, those friends and church family people who "love you in the Lord", but have never bothered to have a conversation with you or invite you to dinner, or treat you with out-of-sight-out-of-mind indifference? (Is it just me?)
Man, I want to be liked. I want people to think I am funny, to want to spend time with me and to be interested in me as a person.
So, with that in mind, does God like me...and how would I even know since it's not like I can reach out and throw my arm around his shoulder.
It all centers around "delight".
Years ago I asked the Lord to do something that would delight me...I mean, really knock my socks off and let me know He's thinking about me and delights in me. After I finished praying I felt in my inner self (my spirit) the Lord saying, "Go sweep the back porch". Wha???
So, I went out and swept the back porch and as I was sweeping the broom struck something big and clunky...a rock. I reached down and picked up the rock, turned it in my hand, and saw a heart. A rock shaped into a heart which had somehow made it's way onto my back porch. I began to weep. It seems so small - and could be cast off as coincidental (if you believe in that sort of thing); for me it was a gift...a token of how much God likes me.
Since that time the Lord has presented me with heart rocks everywhere I go: mission trips, speaking events, conferences, vacations etc. I have a big jar full of them.

Some, like the one in this picture from India, couldn't come home with me, but were just as thrilling to find.

I am convinced that the Lord wants to show each one of us that he not only loves us, but he really does like us too. Why don't you ask Him to show you, in your own special way, that He likes you; then be ready for it!

Please Compliment Me!

I have often been struck by the subtlety of those face book posts that ask you to tell something nice about the person who posted: "Tell me something nice about myself that begins with the letter of your first name" or "tell me where we first me...that is if you really are my friend". What we are really saying is, "Somebody - anybody - please compliment me."
In a culture where you can communicate at the press of a button we are all desperate to get past the silence. It is a silence that is louder than a freight train...it is the silence of a generation that has no idea how to be kind.
I see this lack of kindness in my children. When one child gets a compliment, the other child has to throw in a little insult - just to even things out...make sure she don't get no big head or nothing.
The irony is that our kids are being raised in the culture of self-esteem. Don't you dare tell the kids the truth about their behavior or they might grow up to be axe-murderers or something! Bobby isn't a disrespectful and rude boy...he's...politeness-challenged. Susie isn't a manipulative, angry girl...she's "having a hard time making friends".
So we sit back in our chair, laptop on lap, hoping someone might say something nice to us...might just encourage us a little.
It's just the next-gen equivalent of when we used to sit by the phone, hoping someone cared enough to call and chat.
Man, we are just desperate for approval!
I began thinking about this as I sat at my desk preparing for a conference I am teaching in a few weeks. In Isaiah 57, God calls upon Israel to remove roadblocks, to prepare the road for the work He wants to do. I began wondering what my roadblocks are; sometimes we are truly blind to our own roadblocks.
The Lord's response to my heart-question was this: "You have an addiction to approval."
This was truly born out today when I was teaching one of my exercise classes. I was taking it really easy on my class since it had been a while since our last class. I told them as much and at the end of the class a woman came up to tell me this was the best class she'd ever been to...which is why it frustrated her that I said it was a lot easier than normal. Thanks?
It really sent me for a spin, this side-ways compliment. She liked the class that I don't normally teach and would prefer that I not teach how I normally teach. So...does she like me? Does she like the not-normally-me? Does it matter?
Why do I care?
I have an addiction to approval.
Approval is like a drug. If I am complimented on something, whether it's singing, speaking, writing, or teaching...it makes me want more. "Oh, really? You liked my song? What did you like about my song?"
So, maybe I should not be complimented.
On the flip-side, though, if I don't get complimented (i.e. a nod of approval) it is like getting withdrawals; not quite to getting the shakes, but almost. I need to know you like me. I need to know I am good enough.
So, what can be done about this need - this addiction - for approval.
As with any other need I have to take it to my Counselor. You know, the One Jesus said he was sending? The Wonderful Counselor...the Spirit of Truth who will guide us into all truth (John 16).
The scriptures are flush with the truths of how God feels about us and those truths become the anchor of my needy, little soul.
On my next blog I am going to share a list of those "How-God-Feels-About-Me-Truths", so hang in there, fellow addicts. I like you.

Full Throttle Worship

The following is a repost from last year's mission trip:

A few days ago I returned to the states from the Dominican Republic. I've been on a mission trip sharing the gospel, teaching the bible and helping with a Festival sponsored the by Reid Saunders Association. This is my fourth trip in the last four years with RSA and, to be perfectly honest, I was not terribly excited to go.
Don't get me wrong...I love mission trips, I love serving the Lord by serving others and I was pumped up about doing both. But, I'd been in a really dry place lately with my relationship with the Lord...my worship had been subdued, my prayers had been lame and I was sort of, well, kind of like a wrinkled raisin...just, meh.
As I arrived in the DR I spent a morning in quiet study and prayer, just begging the Lord to revive my heart and ignite my passion about him. I really resonated with the verse in Psalms that takes about "the leanness of the soul"...I wanted my soul to put on some weight; get all fat and juicy!
Well, baby, I was about 5 minutes into the worship and praise part of the Women's Conference that I was to teach, being led in worship by a Dominican "Mandisa" when my soul stirred. Oh, how it stirred, then danced, then leaped about!
These women, these beautiful, big-voiced, passionate Dominican women raised their hands, swayed their hips and sang like angels at the top of their lungs. It was incredible. It was amazing. It was soul-satisfying. You see, I am a big-voiced, hip-swaying, passionate American living in the quiet; living in the sit-still. I didn't realize how quenched I had been in worship until, suddenly, my soul was fat and juicy with it.
Then came the piece-de-resistance! I got up and sang with my Dominican Madisa-like friend Mikal. We sang Revelation Song; she in Spanish, me in English. It was amazing, sacred really. It was full throttle worship and the Lord smiled, and I was satisfied.

Body, Soul and Spirit III: Building the foundation

In the last post I told the story of asking God to make me thin and in response he cast me head long into a fitness teaching career. While God could have just snapped a finger and made me perpetually thin, regardless of diet and exercise (we've all seen those kind), instead the Lord taught me an important lesson: anything worth wanting for is worth working for.
I wanted to like the way I look. I wanted to be able to sit up with the assistance of my arms and legs flailing in the air to get me upright. I wanted to see a bit of muscle tone in places I had never before seen it.
When I first began to teach classes I was unbelievably sore. My now-husband-then-fiancee, Ryan, and I had strict rules regarding places on the other's body we could touch before we were married; one evening I limped in to his parent's house and begged him to massage my glutes. (That is the butt for those who don't know). He refused...it was in "the zone".
"No, it's okay! I won't think of it as sexual...it's just a muscle and it hu-urts!" I whined.
He shook his head in stubborn refusal. My poor buns.
It took a while, and a lot of discomfort, but I got into pretty darn good shape. Sixteen years later it takes a lot for me to get sore now because my body is so accustomed to the work I load on it. And that's the point: anything worth wanting for is worth working

 The above picture was taken when I was 17 years old, I was at one of the heaviest points here.
The picture below was taken when I was 36 years old, after giving birth to three kids.

In the last post we talked about having a goal - which is crucial - but in addition to that goal you have to know how to get there. After starting to teach classes I had to learn, not only how to teach fitness classes, I also had to learn about the way the body functions, how to work it for strength, endurance and flexibility. Most importantly, I had to learn how to fuel my body properly. Basically, I had to relearn how to eat. I can exercise until the cows come home, but if I didn't eat clean, God-made foods, I was doing little good for my body.
You just can not eat junk food and expect to have a lean, strong body. Nope. Not gonna happen.
If your goal for this year is body-health than I would recommend the book Clean Eating by Tosa Reno and also Body By God by Ben Lerner.
Just as diet and exercise are the foundations for building a strong body, Paul tells us that there are some necessary building blocks in having a satisfied soul: faith and a good conscience.
Remember, Paul said the goal of his instruction to Timothy "is love that comes from a pure heart, a good conscience, and a sincere faith." This is what is necessary to tear down any feeling of a wall between you and your Creator. Don't get me wrong...Jesus Christ is always there for you and hears you when you pray; but the bible is very clear that our sins disrupt a close, loving relationship with him. (Check out First John chapter one).
"I just want to feel closer to God", you say.
Great. How is your conscience and your faith?
Are you holding on to resentment and unforgiveness? Baby, that's sin. "For if you forgive people their wrong doing, your heavenly Father will forgive you as well. But if you don't forgive people, your Father in heaven will not forgive your wrongdoing." (Matthew 6:14-15)
Are you jealous of someone? Do you want what someone else has? Do you have a crush on a married co-worker (lust)? Seriously, the list can go on and for those of you who are followers of Jesus Christ and have the Holy Spirit living in you, I bet God brought something to mind, didn't he?
This morning I had to confess my insecurity and pride to the Lord because someone at the gym has bigger class numbers than me and it makes me feel like I am failing. That may not seem like a big deal to you, but for me it was becoming an obsession. I don't want that on my conscience.
How about faith? How are you doing with that building block?
Faith is believing God is in charge and wants what is for the best...especially when it doesn't seem like it.
If you want to grow closer to God, to know him more, to feel His love more...ask Him to give you a sensitive conscience and a stronger faith.

Body, Soul and Spirit II: The Goal

I've been teaching fitness classes for over 16 years. The way I began was a total God-thing because I wasn't looking to teach classes, or had a fitness career on my radar; I was simply interning for a recreation department in a gym-less small town and wanted to offer a cheap class for residents to take. I had been praying, off and on, for a few years that God would make me thin...don't judge. I had been the heavy girl in junior high and high school and I didn't want heaviness to be my destiny; so I asked the Lord to let me be thin.
As the start of this city-offered step class drew nigh and there was no instructor willing to teach, I thought: "Well, I took a semester of step in college, I can teach it for a few days until I find an instructor!"
So I taught the class...and loved it! That was the beginning of what would become a great side job for this stay-at-home Mom and I have loved educating myself through certifications, trainings and home-studies.
Over the last sixteen years I have met a number of very interesting people who share their thoughts toward diet and fitness with me. None are quite as fascinating as the woman, whom I'll call Silly Sally.
Silly Sally, who met me at a preschool Mom's meeting, pulled me aside one day and said, "I want to lose weight, but I don't want to give up eating fast food and I don't want to exercise."
I paused, waiting for the dum-dum-ka! from a drum.
My response? "I'm afraid without changing your diet and exercising you are going to have a hard time losing weight."
Silly Sally had a goal, but she had no desire to work towards that goal, and she was unwilling to change her status-quo. Really, Sally just had a pipe dream; a woulda-coulda-shoulda path lay in front of her due to laziness. People who have this attitude, this "want it but won't work for it" mentality are often the people who feel that they are victims of circumstance and end up blaming others, especially God, for their lack.
The fact is, a goal without a clearly laid out plan results in failure.
When you want to change your body you must have a clearly laid plan for how you'll get there.
When you want to learn more about God and get closer to him, you have to lay out a plan.
When you want to heal from emotional wounds, you need a plan.

 Paul, who was a mentor and "personal trainer" to Timothy, a young preacher, gave his student both the plan and the way to get there.
"Now the goal of our instruction is love that comes from a pure heart, a good conscience and a sincere faith." (1st Timothy 1:5)
If Paul would have left Timothy with that little nugget, poor Timmy would have been left lost and wandering in that fortune cookie. Gladly, for Timothy, Paul spends the rest of his letter to his mentee explaining what that looks like, and why - in relation to our walk with God - we would want as our goal to love from a pure heart, have a good conscience and sincere faith.
We are going to follow Paul's lead over the next few weeks and build the foundation for change, for growth. With that said, what is your goal? Do you want to lose few excess pounds, do you want to get along with your spouse better, do you want to get to know God on a deeper level than you've ever known him before? Think about that and add a comment if you'd like!
Next time we meet we'll start to build our foundation from which our goals will grow.

Body, Soul and Spirit I

For the next few weeks I am going to begin a little tutorial I liked to call "Bible Boot Camp". During this time we are going to take a serious look at our spiritual lives, physical lives and emotional lives and shape up!
I love that many times through out his epistles the Apostle Paul drew parallels between physical and spiritual fitness; as an instructor this appeals to me a lot,
In the same way, I am going to draw a lot of parallels between the two, while giving fitness tips that have real world application. So, consider me your trainer over the next few weeks. Please follow my blog and comment on your thoughts, trouble zones and any inspiration you want to share!

Christina

A Reboot for the New Year

For a while now I have really looked forward to the New Year, I just didn't really know why; it's not like I keep resolutions, so I haven't bothered making them in years. Not much changes for me between December 31st and January 1st, yet still I love New Year's day.
This morning, as I was mentally preparing myself for this day's to-do's, it dawned on me why I like the first of the year so much.
I get to get rid of stuff.
I hate clutter. Messes make me anxious. 
Nothing sets me off like a room gone bad. 
While I love Christmastime, it is also clutter time: too much stuff, too many decorations, too many new things mingling with broken-down old things.
The first day of January is my get-rid-of-the-clutter-and-get-simple-day. Oh yeah, I'm getting excited just thinking about all the organizing and de-junking I get to do today!
Others of you do make resolutions, and bless you for that. Being in the fitness industry I see a lot of resolution-makers come into the gym trying to get rid of "stuff" too. Most of them will be gone by March, but some really do give it the ol' college try and find great success in the Good Riddance resolutions. 
So why is it that at this time of year we all have a desire to get rid of excess, whether it is excess weight, excess clutter, or excessively bad habits?
Well, I think there's a God-component to it...a spiritual need to reboot and draw closer to our maker. The book of Ecclesiastes says "He has also put eternity in our hearts" (3:11); this is that desire in each of us to be connected to something bigger, grander, and more important than our own little lives. It also implies a longing for the ways and the will of God...why else would we want stuff to be perfect and pain-free right now, even in the midst of a fallen and sinful world?
Man, we all long for something...better. So we resolve to lose weight, we resolve to clean the house more, improve the budget, make more money, volunteer, stop smoking, start giving. All this in an echo of the eternity God placed in our hearts.
Really, don't we all just feel like something is off?
When Jesus presented himself to the people of Israel as the fulfillment of prophecy he, essentially, read his own job description from Isaiah 61:1-3

The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me, 

because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news

to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted

to proclaim freedom for the captives

and release from darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim

the year of the Lord's favor and the day of vengeance for our God,

to comfort all who mourn, and to provide for those who grieve in Zion-

to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes,

the oil of gladness instead of mourning,

and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.

Do you see the reboot going on in that passage? It's not like Jesus is unaware that there are atrocities happening every day on this planet; he knows it first-hand and experienced many of those atrocities himself! Jesus knows that the poor need good news, he knows the brokenhearted need binding up and the captives need to be freed. That is what he came to do: Reboot the world!

In this "something's off" kind of world we live in, Jesus Christ offers us all the best word: instead.

He wants to get rid of our ashes and instead give us beauty...reboot!

He wants to get rid of our mourning and instead give us gladness...reboot!

He wants to get rid of our spirit of despair (re: depression, loneliness) and instead give us praise, gladness, and joy...reboot!

So, how can we participate this year in the process? What do you need to get rid of and do instead? 

Less tech time and more Bible study? 

Less isolation and more accountability?

Less selfishness and more service to others?

Or are you living in outright sin and need to get rid of your pet sin and instead develop a closer walk with God?

It's time for a reboot, people.

If any of those "insteads" above spoke to you, why not get a group together and go through my newest Bible study, "We Call Him Father"